Should I contact my X love?

I can appreciate that you have not felt as passionately about anyone else, since this first girl your freshman year of high school. Around the same time frame, I had a very similar situation. In 9th grade, my ''first love'' moved with his parents to a different state and I eventually realized it was over. I was crushed. Life goes on. Not to sound harsh here, but we were 14 years old. How in the world do you know who you are at the age of 14?? There is honestly only a very slight chance things would have continued, even if you never had to move in the first place. Roughly 10 years and 1 divorce later, I'm willing to bet this girl is not even remotely the same person you so fondly remember.

I think you're idealizing the situation, given that you have recently broken up with someone. Perhaps you feel a little lonely and it's easy to remember/go back to how 'great' that first love was, way back when. I strongly suggest you forget this girl and move on. She knows you've attempted to contact her. I'm fairly certain her mother told her that she gave you her number. And I'm even more certain that she saw your email, and is reacting how most people would act after that much time as gone by. That was a long, long time ago. The first cut is the deepest and closure is always good, but I really think closure should have come upon entering your adult life and realizing how young, naive, and innocent you both were. Things happen. Life happens. There is someone else out there for you to fall in love with. Granted it will not be as the first, but perhaps better in a different way. You can never return to the innocence and freedom that go along with being 14/15. Trust that you will find someone else and move on.

Truth be told, "brushing someone off" on an email isn't all that easy, not if you have/had feelings for this person. Now, I'm not saying she brushed you off, maybe she did, maybe she didn't know what to say back and is still thinking it out, maybe she read your e-mail and didn't have time to answer at that moment and completely forgot about it, so many random possibilities. Don't base your entire theory on that, it doesn't necessarily mean anything in Girl talk, it could mean the same as in Guy talk. ;)

I have to agree with littlesenorita, if she is that important to you do whatever it takes to find her. Nothing is better (in my opinion) than having a guy going through the impossible for you it just shows how much he cares, if you didn't like the guy at first that will sure get your attention, unless you overdo it then you'll just get a restraining order.

Find her, call her, just talk to her and tell her you'd love to see her and catch up, she might be thrilled and say yes, just say yes, or say no and then you'll know and move on.

If she says no it could be two things (or more really I don't know her), either she is over you and wants nothing to do with you, has no time, etc. Or, the divorce is too recent (and/or it was too hard, and/or she still has feelings for her ex-husband and might be confused) and she isn't sure/ready. If so, then get together as friends only, show her you care but not in a "I can't live without you" sort of way, just as a friendly "I'm here for you if you need me". When she's ready you'll already be there, just don't force the relationship on her, especially after she has been through a divorce.

Good luck.

Yes contact her. If you need to go to her mom's house, call her, whatever it takes. If you are that obsessed about it you need to do something, and if she rejects you, you'll have the closure that you need.

I doubt that that will happen, it's always interesting to know what an EX has been up to, I'm sure she'll be flattered. You should have said something when you saw her in the auto parts place.