How to reverse my ex's anger and hurt
So my ex and I dated for two years. I broke up with him a few months ago, but we agreed to try again after a month apart. Things seemed to really get great again. All our mutual friends kept telling me how happy they were to see him talking about me nonstop again. The guy was head over heels, and I'm not saying that to be conceited, and I'm not imagining it.
Three weeks ago would have been our two year, if we hadn't broken up. So he took me to dinner, asked me to be official again, and told me I was his better half and how much he loved and cared about me. It was the perfect weekend.
Then we went to our separate homes for Thanksgiving. He had a really rough week. His mom and step dad are contemplating divorce, he had some medical issues, and he had to put his dog down after having her for 15 years.
We had a stupid fight over the phone, which blew up into a complete mess. I was stressed too and said things I didn't mean. I was not nice...I apologized the next day because I had realized my mistake. But he had already shut down emotionally. Totally gone and numb. I gave him a few days of space, and drove four hours to see him later that week with his permission. I said I was sorry and I knew things could get better and we could get past this. He only looked into my eyes, with a dead, painful stare, and said "I can't."
A few days later we talked, and it got a little ugly. He told me I did this, and he can't talk about it with me because I'm the reason he's feeling so angry. He says he can't be with me ever again because he can't risk going through this pain again. He says he's been walking on eggshells to make sure he didn't do anything wrong the past few months, afraid I'd break up with him again. I told him I thought our arguments were from tension from the break up, but if we just appreciated what we fell for two years ago, we could get through it.
I apologized calmly, asked for a fresh start and to forget the pain, and he said no. His mind is made up.
Everything in me says this is wrong. It's not time for us to be apart. I've had three weeks to make sure I'm not just feeling rejected. I truly miss him and his love. Not simply having someone. I surround myself with friends, activities, I work out all the time to feel better. But still I can't sleep, or eat, or do anything without thinking about how I can get him past this anger. He has a tendency to hold onto grudges, and I'm terrified he'll do that with me instead of thinking about all the great times we've had and COULD have in the future. I'm stuck and don't know how to get him through this anger and hurt. Please help me. This is not how things should be after two years of amazing times together. Thanks guys.
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