My girlfriend is 23 about to graduate college and I'm 25 with a job and pursing another degree. girlfriend of a year and a half broke up with me while we were on a trip together. we got back to our place, things got awkward for me. She acted if nothing happened and wanted space, independent and friends. This shook me hard as I begun acting resentful and ignored her when I could. I soon began flirting with other women and escorts (mistake) one night she went through my phone and saw all my conversations with them. She acted furious and said she never wanted to associate with me again. I told her it was her breaking up with me that made me act the way I acted, irrational. It was a form of infactuation to fill the happiness I lost. I never met anyone or lay hands on any other women, it was all text messages. Next morning feeling terrible, I moved out. After a week not talking, told her everything I could to get her back with no regrets (another mistake). She replied. We talked it out until 3 am.
Things started to be okay again as far as resentment towards me gone. every time I ignored her for a couple of days, she would text me back or call me and ask why am I acting like this. Valentine's Day was mutual. I took her out and got her things she always wanted. Everything was normal as if nothing happened. When I texted her she say stop being clingy, when I ignore her she texts me about random stuff as if we were together. it blew up more when her friend sent her a screen shot of a datin profile that I haven't used since it came out and assumed I have been talking to multiple women when I have been trying to work things with her. I found out she haven't forgiven me from what happened last month with other women. I told her one last text explaining, no regrets.
She texts me back saying she cares about me still and appreciate everything I have done but she needs space rn and doesn't think she will get back with me. I am giving the space she wants so much. What should I do everyone?
So I was strolling through my twitter when I came across her saying “When you feel like not doing anything all day… :/” then 30 minutes later says “I guess this is the end, it was bittersweet.” I know I shouldn’t have but I did cause I had nothing else to lose and wanted to keep the door open. I texted her saying hope you had a good weekend and she still sent resentful words and I could just sense it because I know her. She was still mad at me for the dating app that I never used.