I suffer from a mental disability that unfortunately means I have attachment issues. I'm on medication and in therapy and I decided that this relationship is not healthy. The arguing, fighting, disagreements, and disrespect isn't helping my mental health. But I can't seem to stay away. I always end up going back because I know he'll take me back because he literally always does.
I don't like him. I don't want to be with him. But for some reason, the loneliness is even more unbearable to the point where I don't move for days or weeks, which makes no sense considering how little we see each other, like once a week if that.
I'm thinking about going back to school to get my Master's degree and that will keep me busy. But I don't have too many friends so I know if I leave him, I'll truly be alone all the time. So what else can I do to keep myself busy and occupied so I can fill that boyfriend hole that'll soon be in my life? We've been together a few years and I'm really over it at this point.
Most Helpful Guy
" But for some reason, the loneliness is even more unbearable to the point where I don't move for days or weeks, which makes no sense considering how little we see each other, like once a week if that."
The idea of being alone is always worse than actually being alone. It turns out that you're terrified of being alone, in concept, not really in practice; this in turn means that your solution is simply finding a small group.0
Most Helpful Girl
Well, the only thing I can say is that only you can make this decision. I believe that you have far more problems than just your boyfriend. Something that stemmed from your childhood all the way to adulthood, and you attracted a narcissist who took advantage of your problem. I believe that you're relying far too much on external things, instead of learning to truly love yourself. That's the problem. Do you not have family that can take you in and work with you? Because that is what you need most right now. You should just go get your Master's and dump him today if it's possible. I don't know what mental disability it is that requires you to have medication and therapy, but you need to seriously drop this guy, and heal from whatever is holding you back from living life the way you need to live.1