Can't get him out of my head, should I see him again?
So last year I met that guy, who really messed me around for six months. At the beginning it was just a game between us, and he knew that I didn't want anything serious.But he did everything to make me believe he wanted to be with me, and I ended up being madly in love with him. At one point he even wrote me a love email saying he wanted to be with me and that even if he was immature he could change. When we met up after that he said he changed his mind and we couldn't be together because I was moving away (not that far though and only for a year) but said we could at least try.Then it was total silence for months, and I spent the summer being depressed and totally messed up as to why he would manipulate me this way.If all he wanted was sex why would he make me believe he actually cared about me?
The thing is that I know he has a reputation of being a real b*****d, and that he has a girlfriend (even if he said they broke up many times,and that it didn't work well, it seems they're still together) and now that I am not so blinded I realize he's just been making fun of me all that time, like he probably has done with so many others.
I really feel like I need to see him again to actually move on, eventhough this is so risky because he'll probably find a way to smooth talk me into him again. He's been in touch lately and I Haven't replied to him, but really really wish he would show up on my doorstep. What is wrong with me?! I can't even date anyone else because he's always on my mind, and I know he's moving to my city in a couple of months. This is the first time I felt so much for someone, I feel that I have compromised a lot for him in doing things that went against my principles, and I just feel so vulnerable. I also feel guilty for letting such a bad person hurt me and actually want to see him more! Do you think I should see him again to clear things up? And if I bump into him how should I react?! (angry, ignore him, talk?)
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