My first boyfriend had a habit on flirting with girls on Facebook, and not stopping despite me asking him to. So, after 9 months of dating I couldn't take it anymore and I broke up with him. I was so heartbroken, I cried over him almost everyday.
Now, I'm with my new boyfriend, we've been dating for months now. You know what?, he has never done anything that would make me think he would cheat on me, but, I do not trust him. I am always with him, like 24/7, We go to the same varsity and I'm always in his room and I sleepover.
Despite spending almost everyday with him for the last 5 months and not catching him doing anything wrong, I just can't have the confidence I should be having on our relationship. I know it is not fair on him, cause I even get jealous of the smallest things, like him glancing at other girls when we're taking a walk.
I trusted my first boyfriend so much, like a 100% trust level lol, and he did me bad, super bad. I think that will affect me for a very long time, and it will take me longer to trust my boyfriend, cause now, I believe my boyfriend would jeopardise our relationship by cheating, but he has done nothing to make me believe this, and I hate it.
Hopefully you will learn to trust again, it will take some time for me I know.