I literally fear this. I cannot show a man that I love him or even like him.
Is anyone else like this
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Yes, of course I'm just like that. It's natural to be hesitant and guarded before getting in a relationship because when you choose to do so, you're at your most vulnerable state, emotionally-speaking at least.
I used to be very similar to you in not liking cuddling or much touching, aside from some drunken make-outs. But when it came to feeling each other up, I definitely wasn't into any of that.
However, I ran into an old high-school classmate, something clicked and I'm a totally different person now. I love cuddling and random touching almost more than him. I think it's just a matter of finding someone with whom you are so compatible that almost from the get-go you completely trust them.
Try meeting guys as friends first so you can become more comfortable around them to help let your guard down. Little by little they'll win you over and you'll see that half the beauty of being in love/a relationship is being okay with wearing your heart on your sleeve because you trust that your s/o will always have the best intentions when it comes to you.1