Okay so this isn't really a question more like a vent ! Because I have to tell somebody so this won't bother me anymore and I'm not ready to tell anyone in my fam! My best friend knows this story and no one else so you guys may feel welcomed into my world. I am 22 and have never been in a relationship. The one guy I did tell him I had crush on him totally rejected me in high school not in a super scarring way either he just avoided me. Like it wasn't hard either cuz we were in two different social groups and looking back he wasn't cute. All the same I had no choice but to go to school the next day and face the weird looks from him and his friends because I'm sure he showed them the note =(. Over that but I hate when my friend brings it up so then I have to remind her how she was rejected. I try hard not to be that revenge person but. thats another topic. Sometimes I think I'm over it and then there's moments like now where I'm freaking out because I feel like I have no life experience. Plus even though I think I wasn't really an ugly duckling in HS I do look better and feel more confident now until I think of that specific moment! It FUCKING SUCK and it was a sappy I like you note "i may not be perfect but give me a chance" that type of bull shit. NOW NEVER EVER AGAIN WILL I BE SO FUCKING DUMB. Although I think its moments like those that caused me to be painfully quiet until recently I've been breaking out of all my comfort zones but with this one I just wanna stay in my bubble!
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High school was and is a living hell for everyone, they should honestly just scrap the whole thing and teach kids online as that would be more in line with reality. Rejection sucks, i had a kinda similar experience where the guy was just really mean... It still bugs me. But you leave that sh*t behind, and your friend is seriously being a total b*tch and bringing it up. Why? Why bring that up?
You just have to focus on you, doing stuff that's going to make you feel more confident. Once you meet someone it will leave your thoughts. Make some better memories and maybe look at making some better friends too.1