Basically, most guys get more sex, girlfriends, kisses, (in other words they've had at least one of those things) than me and it's making me feel worse and worse. I've never done any of those things, hell, no girl could even stand me. I don't know what to do anymore, fuck, I don't even want a girlfriend anymore (well, I do) I mostly want to get laid now (not with a fucking prostitute). I don't know how much more indifferent I could get, I mean, at this point I don't love anything at all, I don't even care about much of anyone at this point. It's just, I'm only ever seen as a friendly girls apparently, and, I don't know, maybe it's my personality, I try not to be a jerk because I can get very aggressive very quickly (I devote a lot of energy solely to controlling my anger) I don't tease because I can get very overboard with it, I tend to be a natural loner so I usually do my own thing (though I can hold a good conversation) and girls always end up being taken by other guys. I just, what's wrong with me? I stare into my mirror asking myself that question every day, why me? Every other guy, every other fucking guy can get a girl, not me! I'm 17 and not even in college, my time isn't tomorrow I won't meet anyone tomorrow, hell, at best my time is two goddamn years from now!!! I DONT WANT TO SPEND ANOTHER YEAR BELOW EVERYONE ELSE!!! What have they even done to deserve girls and se sand to be loved? Why can't I be loved? DAMMIT, I just wish I had some meds so I could kill my emotions!!! I'll admit it, I'M JEALOUS OF THEM, WHILE LIFE FAVORED THEM IT IGNORED ME!!!
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You really need to stop comparing yourself to others.
And you need to work on your self esteem. Big time. The way you're acting/talking is a huge turn off to women
You need to start changing things. The sooner the better. It won't be easy and it won't be quick.
If possible see a therapist who specializes in cognitive therapy. If that isn't possible maybe you'll want to try this.
This is a great book. My therapist suggested it and it has helped a lot.
It will help you to start seeing things in a more positive way. It also gives you exercises for ways to improve yourself.1