Growing up, I've always found it hard to form any sort relationship with anyone; either a friend or something more. I've always feel as though, I was only being used and therefore, in time, people have always abandoned me when I needed them the most. I am only good to them when I am useful to them and mutuality does not exist in this friendship, and hence I became sort of a loner nowadays. To make matter worst, no matter how hard I try in the dating area, I've always found myself in the reject zone, or what you call it, a natural selection. No girls that I like are interested in me, and therefore, I have always been single all my life. I have even tried Match.com, but then again no one was really replying to me at all; even with just a simple hi or hello. The biggest flaw I have is that I lie a lot, and that is simply because I just can't accept myself or can't really share any experience to anyone I make connections with, and that because I have non. In addition, even though I am Filipino or Asian, I have never been attracted to any Asians whatsoever, I've always found myself attracted to Caucasian, specifically brunettes. The probable reason with that is probably because I just hate myself too much to actually like the same ethnicity as I am, therefore lies another problem. Moving on, the worst thing that happened to me is when I went to a bar to meet a friend, in which I came a little early so I sat down not necessarily next to this Asian girl, but an empty seat next to her. Without any restrain whatsoever she blurted out "You've got to be kidding me, you're like 70% of a man (I am 5'4", Asian, wear glasses), and you think you have a chance with this? You have a better chance of winning the lottery than a shot of taking me home tonight, Ughhh" She stormed out immediately, when all I really wanted was a simple drink by myself before my friend gets here. Therefore, I ask. Is some people simply meant to be alone or just way too repulsive for anyone? Please advise.
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