Hi, I'm 17 and I've never had a boyfriend or a first kiss or anything like that. I'm a shy kinda person and I don't know it just never happened.
I've liked this guy for like 3 years now though, I have an extreme crush on him haha. I'm pretty sure he liked me freshman year of high school (we'll be seniors next year) and I think he still might but I'm not as certain. I've imagined dating him and always thought how I'd definitely date him if he asked and all that.
But now he's coming to hang with me, my best friend (who does not know of my crush) my friends brother who's also my good friend and another girl friend. Tomorrow.
So now that my sister and brother in law know I actually do like him, I feel they may try to really push us together tomorrow at my party and I'm suddenly scared. I've imagined us dating so many times and I always thought I'd love it but I don't know I'm kinda scared. I don't know why.. I'm just like. ridiculously scared of the possibility now..
I'm also worried about the teasing from my family.. they always teased me about not having a boyfriend yet. So I can't imagine how much I'll have to. ensure when I actually do date someone finally. I have anxiety problems so this is very daunting to me..
So I guess I'm scared about my family's reaction and I don't know the change? How things will be different or idek what should I do? I'm like 80% sure he does like me lol. So its a high possibility something could happen so should I go for it or just not try my fears like what I don't know how to deal with this uncalled for fear x (