Tomorrow we are going to meet at uni to tell me her big news (i knew it through someone but acting like i didnt) Today she met me and told me we should sit and talk to tell me something I will surely show happiness etc But deep down im sad I wanna cut her off because it hurts my heart also to show her that im irriated at the same time and not give her myself or my time because today at uni even though i was talking to my friend she tapped my back and said hi I wanna lose her Im only gonna see her in 3 months because thats her last sem
she likes me but what made me not the one, im younger than her by 3 years and worthless af because i was forced to leave my country due to war. Plus i dont wanna be that guy who she can still talk to as a friend or have my time. it makes me sad at some level all i want is to leave as a gentleman and finish it strong as i started it I was so straight from the beginning i wanna finish it the same way.
The fact that you didn't do anything about converting her from crush to couple is only your fault. Don't ruin her day. She's excited about her news and wants to share it with a friend. Take the high road and be that friend.
You can't do anything. She's engaged to be married to someone else anf has absolutely no feelings for you. You should focus on other things until you can forget her and find a new crush. But this time maybe act on it. Don't just sit there and let her slip away...