I'm a 15 year old girl and to be honest, I'm shit scared of anything remotely to do with dating, boyfriends or relationships in general. Nothing traumatic has happened to me in my life (thank the heavens), so it's not that. And I am not surrounded by crumbling relationships or broken families, so it's not that either. I have had boyfriends of course but nothing at all serious. I haven't kissed anyone but just thinking about it makes my skin crawl and I get really nervous.
Both of my parents (yes, even my Dad) said they wouldn't mind if I were to have a boyfriend, and that if I wanted to out to the cinema or get lunch with him I would be allowed. But I honestly am so scared of relationships, that I wouldn't dare. I am also friends with a lot of guys, but they are just friends so I know nothing like 'that' will ever happen with them.
But don't get me wrong, I find guys attractive and everything, but I just imagine them asking me out an I can honestly say I would deny every single one of them. At the same time I really want a boyfriend, but I'd be too petrified to even touch him in any way, shape or form, even a hug.
And I'm not an emotional person at all! The last time I ever cried was when I broke my arm at age 10, and I don't think I would even shed a tear of heartbreak if a guy were to break up with me. And I know that I am straight, I can't think of any other reason for these feelings of fear!
15 year's old and you've had boyfriends, I don't judge, but by the average account, usually these relationships are without reason and purpose they are valueless, I think your problem is that you are living in an environment considered crude and primitive.
Ok im 15 to but im a dude and girl and boys are different I five the girls hint and flirt but remember flirting is supoosed to be enjoyable for both people or sometimes im brave and go over there and ask them out
I was kind of like you. I didn't want to have a boyfriend because I was terrified of commitment or that we were going to have to do more and more physical stuff and I'm very insecure about my body so that terrified me even more. But when I met the right guy all of that went away. I think it's a combination of you not being ready and that you probably have fantasized about the perfect relationship and you're probably afraid it won't be like you imagined. Just give it time.