If I had manned up in junior year of high school way back when with that one girl, my life would have gone rather differently. I wouldn't have been such a later bloomer.
I started to step outside my comfort zone in 2014, got my heart broken in 2015, and you know what? I'm ready to try again with someone else this year.
I'm basically tackling this the same way I did when I got my lisence at twenty-one (just never got around to it 'cause I was scared) and aiming to finally get with someone at twenty-four-soon-to-be-twenty-five (I think I've waited long enough, honestly).
I'm used to being on my own, I'm quiet, I don't engage people, I have solitary interests, I was never one of the popular kids so the girls I was interested in never took an interest in me, I have high standards, I was never into the hookup culture and wouldn't get into a relationship with any willing chick with a pulse.
Basically I want a relationship (emotional and physical) with a girl I find really attractive but I haven't come across one because of my personality limiting my opportunities and my ability to take advantage of what few opportunities I have. Then there's the rejections I've had because the girls I have tried with reject me for lack of chemistry.
My standards are too high for the kind of person I am. I also spent all of high school only interacting with like 6 girls on a regular basis. Because there were only six girls in my village. Yeah. It was hell.
Just turned 27, never dated. Bad traits picked up from my upbringing, too much criticism from my parents probably. I always think I'm not good enough in one way or another. Upbringing really messed up my self esteem and the way I look at things. I tell myself, I'll approach a girl once I have a great body, teeth, skin, job, health, car, money.
It's almost as if I don't have any imperfections, I won't feel like there's anything wrong with me. I have a very hard time accepting myself for who I am
ughh me and i feel really hopeless, like I will be single forever.
Part of it is I have a hard time approaching guys and talking to them. I can't even make eye contact without my reaction being to look away. I think if guys ever did have a crush on me the way I end up acting around them makes them think I don't like them.
I've never had a boyfriend because I'm picky, I used to be really ugly, and I used to be extremely shy. Now I'm talking to someone and hopefully I won't be single for much longer (;