Don't you have a female friend from your childhood? At least she has that criteria you're looking for. Other than that, it sounds like you've already made a movie scene in your head about a girl who's in a relationship, but then sees her first love from childhood and falls in love with him on first sight with dramatic music on the background. You understand how this sounds to other people right? Maybe you should write a book about it. I don't think a lot of people here on gag will help you with your journey since you kind got a name here. Try some other site and take your meds and keep going to therapy. Good luck.
You give each yourself away every single time. There's a padded room with your name on it.
Dude what... As for where to get them, why don't you just get a girl from foster care and make sure she never gets a boyfriend and then marry her once she's 18? You'll have the childhood memories with her, you'll be each others' first love, and even better for you: she'll be a virgin when you bang her.
Dude, you had better be REALLY fucking impressive to get a girl like that which also isn't a nutcase, and I for one, am so not impressed. Are you really funny? You don't seem funny. Are you understanding and emotionally supportive? No, you seem detached and self-absorbed. You haven't even met this girl, and you're already shutting her feelings, and her life experiences down. Are you supportive and cheerful? You seem possessive, pessimistic and extremely insecure.
You seem possessive as f*ck, and a frankly, obsessed about this thing. I hope it's a phase for your own good. Stop being so insecure ffs, move on.
That seems very possessive and controlling. She must love you and only you her entire life? Sounds like the beginning of an emotionally abusive relationship.