I know I'm only 21, and this won't last too long before I dip back in the water... But seriously, the past 7 months I've really given this dating thing a go and it's all just been a shit show.
I have guys asking me out very frequently and I just decided hey, let's actually stop being an introverted loner and maybe you'll meet someone! Ha ha haaa..
seriously... I have never been such an emotional wreck in my life Hahahah. My god. I never thought dating would be this difficult, or how full of lies other people can be just to get what they want. Man! It's been a long go. I'm SO sick of it! I'm sick of not trusting any dude, how they "aren't ready for a relationship," ... Pushing me to behave in ways I normally never thought I would (stalking them at midnight, setting up fake online accounts to catch them). I swear I'm not psycho! But I hate hate hate being ignorant and being the dumb one. I won't have a guy pull me around like that. My god, and don't get me started on these "mind games." They work! They do work, but I hate being such a fake person to another.
all in all, I've ended up empty handed. I've learned great lessons about players and manipulations, but I am farther away from love and trust than I've ever been. My heart was really broken by one guy, who I spent way more time being dragged around than I should have allowed. I lost myself... I literally didn't sleep and i lost my dignity. Now, I just want to chill OUT and not see any guy or do anything except MY own thing.
normal experience? Anyone else?
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I've stopped trying for a while. I'm just the friend guy. Girls just aren't attracted to me. I have a great personality and am sought after for friendship but that's it. People tell me that girls notice me and I just don't see it but I doubt that. I know the right girl is out there but unless I bump into by some crazy chance I'm just not looking anymore. I tend to wonder what is wrong with me but I've realized nothing is wrong girls just don't see what's right with me. I have no negative feelings towards that I just wish I could meet someone and we could appreciate each other.1