I couldnt afford to ruin my life... but i did. At 18 i stopped going to school, it was vital for me to stay in school, u went back at 21 but the education sucks. I feel like i am not made for life, i am too broken, i can't open up to people, i fake socializing, i can't sleep with men, i am still a virgin, the moment a guy tried sleep with me, i got a panick attack. I used to be so strong and mature, i used to know what i want, i used to be so strong but now i am behind anyone and i ruined myself. I dont know what happened but i wore a brace througout high school and i guess that experience traumatized, but i think my sister also ruined me, i gave my power to her and i became like her, my mom used to also beat me unexpectedly, i feel like i failed at life and seriously see no point in moving on. I am a social outcast as Always, im a virgin, never had a boyfriend, as soon as i walk into the real world i will not make it. I have no family nor friends, i didn't take control of my life, i should have had and now I never felt this closed off, there is no way someone could get in, i really wanted to live, i really do but i can't even ask for help, i can't even ask for help, i feel left out and depressed, if i was a woman with a warm heart i would have left my family behind, i really, if i was smart i should have left at 17, this regret that i have is too much to bair and live with... the guy i liked said it was depressing for him to meet me.
I am 24 and I really dont know what to do?
What Guys Said 5
Take it day by day. Seek professional help who looks out for your best interest.0
It isn't too late you can still make amends. Rather than lament on what was, you can focus on what is maybe you could pick up a new job or something don't worry it gets better, trust me :)0
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What Girls Said 3
Rise above it! You can do it! Gave you ever seen those stories on Facebook about famous people who had really shitty lives and made something of themselves? I think even Einstein was one? Colonel Sanders (yes, of KFC) was one of those too.0
have you thought of maybe being attracted to girls?0