Seriously, I trusted people again, opened myself up, and now I'm discovering that I really can't handle intense relationships.
2mo For anyone interested and wondering, being in a relationship when broken does not fix you. At best it puts most of the pieces back together with scotch tape; at worst when you break you just break someone else along with you. On the flip side of that coin, "Take time to work on yourself and put the pieces back together" is just as much of a lie. Don't think of yourself as glass, you're not. You're a Faberge egg that once dropped and broken can never be returned to a valuable state.
2mo Once broken, you're nothing more than something that was once great and you'll spend your entire life remembering the good days. Dreaming of them, yearning for them, chasing shadows to the past. You'll never catch them, and you know you never will, but you'll keep at it; running, and running, and running until your knees give out and you collapse. You'll spend the rest of your time crawling until your being wastes away. This is the futility of self betterment, this is the futility of repair.
You should never be too trusting with anyone. Would you jump out of a plane without a parachute, if someone said you will survive we have a trampoline on the ground? You mistake and you learn from them. We need human connection and relationships. Take things one step at a time, figuring out your internal battles.