I have a nihilistic complex and certainly more pessimistic outlook of our world and our reality altogether. I mean how does one with such will ever have the incentive or motivation to really actually date anybody anymore? Even then, I can't hide this forever within me since I know that it would eventually be discovered by my partner if I were in a relationship. And then I'd expect them to leave in the end no matter what, thus even if I were in a relationship it will lead to self sabotage or otherwise I end it quicker than imagined and tell them it's really for their own good.
Unless they and I have very close to or exactly the same outlooks in the very first place or something.
I don't have time to go around and look for females due to work and stuff, and dating sites are just useless. 2 Weeks into college and girls don't talk to me so I'm kind of in a rut, so pretty much no contact with girls for that year and a half.
Its been 2 years. No, I haven't been on any dates or hooked up since.
I am still single because I need more confidence before I can form another relationship with someone. In order to fix that, all I've been doing lately is physically bettering myself. Its difficult though because I get discouraged a lot.