We were never official. And we only went on 2 dates (it was really a weekend hookup). We lost our virginities to each other and she did not want a relationship.
But now that I reflect on it, I think I was living a dilusion, or a fantasy.
See, I never experienced young love as a teenager and that was something I regretted.
When I was with her, I was imagining it as almost like a teen romance. I feel like I convinced myself I was her age. It is really hard to explain. Like I imagined myself as being a young teenager everytime I kissed her on the bridge of her nose. I tried to replicate "young, innocent love"
But the thing was, I wasn't really aware I was loving a false image and I didn't really realize it wasn't the same.
I can't really explain it. Maybe someone could give me more insight.
I sort of think many who date younger do so for similar reasons to you. That's why they all say stuff like he/she makes me feel young, or they love the innocence and things like that. Some, not all, are generally young minded themselves too and wouldn't do so well with somebody of their own age group. Some people date younger during a so called "mid-life crisis" too and do many things to take them back to younger years.