I seriously have never felt so completely hopeless in my life. I just graduated high school this year, over the summer my boyfriend broke up with me and my family told me that I have to sell my horse so that we can afford to keep our house. That also means that I can't afford to go to the college that I really wanted to go to. I have no idea what to do with myself, I am falling really really deep into depression and it feels like all my friends have just disappeared on me. I have no idea what to do with my life. I could get a job...and I have been applying to places and trying to get a job. But jobs don't usually bring you happiness. I don't know what to do...my friends aren't there, I have no plans for the future, I have no one to love and am still really heartbroken over my last ex. What can I do? I really need help...I have been thinking a lot lately about just ending it all. I want to fix it all so badly but I don't even know where to start or how...
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Take a deep breath... Feel the air inside your lungs? Exhale.. It means your alive.
EVERY problem you listed, only causes temporary misfortune... Maybe the people that buy your horse will treat it wonderfully; they might even stay in touch and bring her by the house for you to ride her... Afterall good karma is a great thing - feel free to ask the new owners to do so, many of the people my father sells horses to brings them by so we can put on new shoes.. My sister got out and rode one a few years ago.. So yea, it's possible. Never doubt anything, always ask until you know the answer is "no". ;)
As for the boyfriend - it truly sucks, but can you honestly and sincerely tell me that there will NEVER be another love in your life? I can gaurantee you that there will be someone better, because life is a learning experience and as we age, we learn new skills and new ways of perceiving life. Just because this guy was "the one" for then; doesn't mean he was the "one" forever.. The one you marry will hopefully be your true love, but never settle and never beat yourself up over a loss.. That's like me saying "Because my best friend died 2 years ago, I'm going to stop living .. right now".. That's stupid and selfish - you can help a ton of other people and meet a lot of great new boyfriends; all in due time.
As for friends - This is why mom and dad said: "Friends won't stick around forever".. We all have to grow up and go our own paths in life.. Some are in college, some are working harder than ever, some are at home playing video games.. But you can still see them if they answer the phone - Take the initiative and give them a call.. It may seem like a lot of work when you are so stressed out; but I can tell you from my soul that it helped me feel better, to have a friend around, when I had stuff on my plate.
Jobs - They are the worst and the best thing ever.. Without being busy, your world becomes a wreck.. But when you are so busy, all you want is freedom!.. And then when you have a job, you don't want to quit.. But when you don't have a job, you want to enjoy... What the hell is wrong with us? (Or maybe just me =P)... The only thing I can tell you is that "persistance" always pulls off better than laziness.. If two people turn in an application and only one stops by every single day to find out the progress (if they are hired or not) which do you think will be hired?.. Probably the one that was there every day :P
Plans for the future? Dig deep - do you wanna skydive? Go to college? etc.. Pick a goal and don't stop until you've accomplished it and a new goal.
As for college - Try FASFA and other grants/scholarships.. Between those you might actually get PAID to go to college (if you get enough of them).. Some scholarships you do have to pay back, so make sure they are the scholarship you are willing to accept and that you know the terms.
Things will turn around in time, keep your chin up