Well I invited my boyfriend to homecoming since it is the 3rd(the day he moved away and if he comes I will get to see him after 2 years) and I was really excited about it but, now I'm not. Him and my best friend were talking over the phone and I overheard their conversation, He said that when he comes to homecoming he was going to surprise me with a kiss. Right when I heard that I don't want Friday to come! It will be my first kiss and I don't know if I want it yet! He wants to kiss me in front of everybody so everyone will know that I'm his( everyone doesn't know that we are going out. when he left they though we hated each other to death!) and to top it all off my parents don't know about us either(I had kinda told them 2 years back when he moved and they disapproved of it because it will be a LDR and my mom has people she wants to pair me up with).This is also my first boyfriend and I'm so unsure on what to do that day. I can't imagine the kind of abuse I'll get from everyone(they still bring up the subject of me and him till this day but I always say "I hate him" but, with a little hesitation but still a very believable performance) I don't know why I'm so afraid of everyone knowing! So what should I do? I would really like my first kiss to be in a private place not in front of everyone! Also I'm afraid that he will not like how I look(we haven't seen each other since the day he left, 2 years) He says he doesn't care but still.
P.S. He doesn't know I know he is going to give me a kiss. This will also be his first kiss and I'm also his first girlfriend(I think It is a miracle that we have been together for 2 years and that for those 2 years we have talked to each other every day.)
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If you've been together for two years and haven't kissed then I don't really think it's an intimate relationship. If you like him then you shouldn't care what other people think. It isn't really fair to be hypocritical towards someone you supposedly like. If you don't want him as a boyfriend then tell him, if you do then stop worrying so much and be happy that he likes you back. If you don't want to kiss him (not sure why you wouldn't want to kiss your boyfriend) then maybe you don't want to continue being with him. If you are too afraid to admit you like someone then they probably aren't for you.0