- my boyfriend has been having "episodes" as he calls them, where he he's voices that say, "kill yourself" or sometimes "kill other people"...lately its been worse. he was hospitalized last week because he was literally screaming and hitting himself to try to get the "voices" out of his head...hes currently on 200 mg of thorazine and takes abilify twice a day..but I don't know how he will be when they lower the dose.
-to tell you the truth. he's a violent person, and I guess I'm just extremely scared he will listen to the "voices" and hurt someone. then forget about it...and be jailed for years.
I'm scared he'll hit me. I love him. I really do...we've been dating 2 years. he means so much to me. and I don't want to see this
sickness take him over...
I'm worried and confused. I want to know that it'll be okay. yet, somethings telling me it won't be alright. I care about him so much. I don't want to see him like this anymore...i just wish it could be me and him, like we used to be. now the voices are the third person in the relationship.. : /
advice? person to talk to..?
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Hey, I know this is tough. I'm not in exactly the same situation, but my younger brother was diagnosed with schizophrenia a few years ago. He's an awesome person, but when he's in psychosis, he can be pretty unpredictable and it can be scary at times. When he's on his meds, he's much easier to be around and his life is a lot more manageable, but he goes off them often because a lot of the drugs they use to treat schizophrenia have nasty side effects, make him feel like he's "not himself", and a lot of times when things are going well, people feel like they don't need to take them and so they stop.
Everyone has a different experience with schizophrenia, so its hard to say what the future will bring, and it also might take a bit of trial and error for him to find a medication that works for him.
I guess the two things I want to say to you are:
This is going to be a really tough time for him. He may lose friends and loved ones who don't understand or who are also scared or have trouble dealing with his illness. He's going to need support. If you choose to stay with him, it might be helpful for you to seek out a support group for people with loved ones who have schizophrenia.
But also know that you are not obligated to stay with him. If you can't maintain your relationship with him, if its too hard on you or if he is showing indications that he might hurt you, your first obligation is to yourself---for your own emotional well-being and personal safety (having schizophrenia does not necessarily mean that a person is violent, but you stated that he is a violent person and I'm not sure exactly what you mean by that). It might mean just being friends with him, or it might mean cutting your ties with him. It probably won't be an easy decision should you have to make it, since I'm sure you care about him a lot after being with him for 2 years, but as I said, your first responsibility is to yourself.