I am a 17 year old and have never had or even really had a conversation with a girl. I mean, I am not an unapproachable person. Girls have no problem talking to me, I just have problems responding or reacting properly and I always end up embarrassing myself. I have a lot of friends, I'm in multiple sports, and I am rank 21 (last time I checked) in my class. The closest contact with a girl I've had was when I started a conversation by pointing out something funny she did. She then got really into the thing I said and I froze as she started talking to me. I felt like I jumped out of cover in a firefight and my gun jammed. I was very embarrassed, especially because my friend was able to bail me out and take the conversation off my hands.
Another problem is that I am a little strange. I don't want any sex. I'm a heteroromantic asexual and only want the companionship. On top of that, I am diagnosed as being sadistic (not severely, I can control myself) and I only allowed this to show once when I won a fight and continued to beat the guy. I felt embarrassed after that because I felt WAY too good after I was done.
My fear is that even if I would get to talk to a girl I wouldn't be able to make any moves, and if I did that I wouldn't be able to keep her because she'd start to learn what I'm really like. Any comments? Advice? Questions? I'd prefer to get a girl's opinion on this because I can talk to my friends all I want and they already gave me answers that lead to dead ends.
Am I destined to live life alone? Because that would really suck...
Also... please don't question my sexuality or sadism... I know what I am, I have talked to psychiatrists, I doubt any of you know better about that...
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I think that all will begin to make sense to you when you do find that girl who is a great friend and companion, that understands and accepts you for who you are? Like in what way is it hard for you to talk to girls? Is it that you get nervous or embarrassed? Or a lack of confidence? Ital be easier for you to speak to girls once you get started it will become much easier. Also you having issues with your mother you shouldn't let that get in the way of your social life with girls or women..I have serious issues with my dad and have learnt that at times some people and friends can be more accepting, give you more confidence and keep you much happier than your family can.0