In February, my boyfriend broke up with me and I was devastated. This is the first guy I truly fell in love with, and I fell in love with him hard. I'm still not completely over it.
The thing is, he's not completely normal. He self-diagnoses himself as a schizophrenic with an inferiority complex. He refuses to see a shrink. I also suspect he might be bipolar because he can be the most romantic and sweet man at one moment and then cursing me out for no real reason the next.
My question is: does it say something about me that my first love has mental issues? Is there something wrong with me that I can't connect on the same level with "normal" people? I've been in relationships before but I've never felt as strongly about someone and now I'm questioning why, especially as these feelings won't go away
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well my first boyfriend was like this. I broke up with him last year because he wanted to break up at the end of the summer before college so I did it for him! (jerk) but we had a series of talks after that where he admitted he never loved me. he doesn't love his mom and doesn't have genuine emotions for anyone and I still loved and cried over him like a new born baby. I thought something was wrong with me too but the only thing that was my issue was my lack of self esteem and unyielding faith in him. I acted like he was a prophet or something. Just leave that situation. Trust me. I haven't found too much better but its better than being with someone who doesn't have stable emotions.0