I'm having trouble trusting my boyfriend, due to past bad relationships.
I'm currently dating an absolutely AMAZING guy. He's so kind, sweet, thoughtful, lovely, affectionate.. I could go on! And to be quite honest, it really feels all too good to be true.
My last relationship I was with the guy for a year and a bit, and he treated me awfully, was incredibly controlling, cheated on me several times, and just made no effort whatsoever. I was really hurt by the end of that relationship.
I've been with my new boyfriend for nearly four months now, and I genuinely couldn't be happier! He has never done anything that should make me doubt his love and trust for me. I did meet him only about a month after breaking up from my ex - which I know is incredibly short space of time, but I didn't purposely go seeking another boyfriend, and he's so lovely and so perfect for me that I couldn't miss out on a relationship with him. However, I am really having trouble to trust him, and I've done two silly things lately that I'm mad at myself for and would hate for him to know about. I checked his phone when he went out the room, and I've also checked his Facebook.
I am so so so mad at myself for doing these things, as to be honest they are completely out of character. But I just had a horrible feeling that this really was all too good to be true.
I am quite low in confidence in general, about my appearance, and I guess I just don't know why I'm so lucky to have such an amazing boyfriend.
I'm scared I'm going to ruin things with my trust issues, and need some advice before I mess things up! I really could see myself being with this guy for the rest of my life, and I just want to be able to trust him. Please help!
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