I look in the mirror, and I see ugliness. I actually avoid looking in mirrors now. I used to find myself pretty, but my mom started to put me down all the time, and tell me I'm ugly, and that I'm slut, Etc. And after a while, I started to believe it. So, my question is, Do you find yourself ugly? If you used to find yourself ugly, but now you don't, how did you change your point of view on yourself? Thanks(: This could really help me(:
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I used to think I was ugly, but now I don't. I had such deep, self-hate. It got to a point where I became my biggest bully. I was telling myself that I was ugly and didn't deserve certain types of moments, experiences, and guys.
I got tired of feeling so terrible all of the time. I wanted to know what my life could feel like. Realizing that my self-hate was stopping me from being happy, it had to go. So I began healing my broken self esteem. I accepted the fact that being ugly is something so much deeper than your face, just as well as being beautiful. Ugliness is not about not looking like a supermodel and not having anyone tell you how pretty you are. Being ugly is causing pain and destruction among others. Being ugly is being the type of person who stops progress in this world. I was NOT ugly. No matter how I looked, I was not that kind of person and I embraced that. In that moment, I felt all of my self doubt and pain lifting right up off me, like fog rising above the water. Ever since then, I started focusing on achieving true beauty which starts in the mind and the soul then spreads to the surface. I became a beautiful person on the inside, then I started taking better care of my appearance. I started trying products that were best for my hair, started getting my eyebrows done, started dressing fashionably and wearing a little make-up. But all of that was like icing on the cake because of the immense beauty I had built inside :)1
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