I lost a significant amount of weight in a very short amount of time. I felt like people saw me as the fat kid. I figured loosing the weight would make me more likeable. I figured boys would like me better. I figured it would fix every single problem I had ever had. But it didn't. At first I was suprised. Then I figured, maybe loosing more weight would make it better. Only the skinny girls with little tiny waist and big assets were the ones who got attention. I wanted to look like that. So I started counting calories. It became all I thought about. It affected my friendships, spreading me apart from my friends. It even made me focus less in school and get worse grades. I got a few compiments but trust me when I say it wasn't worth it. I don't know how to stop. I'm always counting and counting and counting. I define tell had a eating disorder at one point. I've been to yoyoing with my weight for a while now and now I feel fat again. I'm 5'5 and I go between 100 and 110, I was 90 at my peak of insecurity. I just don't know what to do.
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I can definitely relate to those struggles :) All I can say is that you are more than just a number on a scale. I would like you to consider all the amazing qualities that you have and why they make you special compared to other people. Yes, people do look at our outer shell but it ultimately just houses who we are on the inside. You are probably a great person with many talents & I'd hate to think that you're fretting over something that does not give a complete picture of who you are. At the end of the day you need to fall in love with who you are and stop being so hard on yourself. I appreciate your question because it put things in perspective for me as well. If you really think about it we always judge ourselves more harshly than other people do. Your weight is perfectly normal and I want you to be proud of what you've accomplished to get there. The danger is that obsessing over your weight will suck all the fun you get out of life. As you said earlier, it's interfering with your relationships and your daily. Although this might be a difficult first step, I recommend speaking to someone about it (whether it be a friend, a family member, or even a professional) :) I genuinely hope you can overcome these challenges & realize that you are beautiful from the inside out :)0