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because sometimes you just can't help how much you love them. and can't stand not being with them. you'l put yourself through pain just to be with them. its horrible I know but I'm doing it now.
i hate myself for it and I wish I was strong enough to walk away. but the thought of not being with him and watching him move on with someone else breaks my hurt. and that's just the thought of it.. so imagine how I would be when it finally becomes reality.
even though it happened a year ago (him cheating) I find it so hard to even let him talk to another girl. do you know what its like to have every single bad thought/imagine run through your midn about what they could be doing with one another, or what he wants to do with her. I wish these thoughts could just eb erased from my mind it would make my life so much easier. its taking over my life and I can't stop it. and its making me lose him.
i've even thought about taking drugs to keep my mind from thinking things. or going on anti-depressents because I've heard they can relax you.
its not a nice feeling knowing a guys messed you up so much that you will go against all your beliefs to try and feel better, and STILL want to be with them. I just hope that one day I'll be strong enough to leave him.
everyone can think what they want but you can never understand until you've been in my shoes and have the same mind as me. everyones different and deals with things in different ways.
sorry its long.