I did. it was to make sure we could be friends... I figured if I pretend to myself and him that I don't feel that way, then it would give me time to figure things out without making him or myself think ahead. I mean you can be in love with some one without wanting to be in a relationship. so that was me, I was in love but said nothing, because I did not want him to take it the wrong way... Well he took it that I did not care for him and became increasingly distant ... I look at things differently now. If I feel that strongly about someone, I want to let them know. I'm not big on saying 'i love you' but I might have to say that I want them in my life, or I etc care. I would prefer it just be said with a look or a touch or a stone or song or something. In order for that to received clearly the person needs to be receptive, some people are just not good at intuition. ... I think it would feel really wonderful to really know that you felt that way and say oit. Say it without any expectations would be great. If I had the chance to tell someone I would... I used to not tell the people I specifically cared for that I did not. I did not want to represent myself 'that way'. Love is not a representation it is a feeling. So is feeling like an idiot.. I think it is better to risk feeling dumb then not to feel.
I was so busy proving that I did not want a relationship that I forgot that I cared. When he told me how he felt, I just stood there looking at him. Like why is he telling me this. I am usually honest with myself, but I think a lot of people do it. sometimes without realizing it... Actually how I 'feel' about someone is the only thing I cannot rely on myself to be completely honest about.
I am uncomfortable with having feelings for other before I worry about there reaction I am worried about mine I am sure many people feel that way, and it is by no means perpetual.