How can I get my ex-girlfriend back after I 'sort of' cheated on her?
First of all I'm going to apologize for the long winded story I'm about to write but here goes.
I had been with my girlfriend a year and a half, and it was absolutely great well the first year anyway. I treated her all the time, complimented her everyday, bought her nice things, and spent all my time with her, if we weren't with each other we'd be texting each other. 3 Weeks ago this all changed, we went to a concert and had an amazing night, I loved it. She got home and had gone on my Facebook without me knowing, and fount a conversation between me and a girl. This girl I don't even know, I've never met before, but I said things a guy in a relationship should not say. I mean I don't even know why I said these things as I didn't even mean them! I'm ashamed of myself as its not who I am, even though I haven't met, had sex, or kissed another girl, I'm still ashamed! This broke her heart and it kills me inside knowing it was my fault to why we split.
Since the break up, she has hated my guts. Her mother told me I had to fight for her back, I begged her, and pleaded forgiveness, I wrote her a long letter of all the amazing memories we had and the little things I love about her which she didn't realize I picked up on. I've realized doing all this, was just pushing her away and from the start I should of just given her space. But that's one of the hardest things ever to do, especially when you're told to prove how much you want her and fight for her!
The last 6 months of our relationship, I took her for granted and stopped doing the things I use to do. I stopped appreciating how much she loved me, which she did, I mean I don't think anyone could love me more than her! I treated her badly, and I've only just realized after not being with her at what an ass hole I have been! I've told her I've changed, that I'm sorry and that I won't break her heart again.
At the moment we're not talking, after constantly pleading my forgiveness, and promising new starts and changes, I realized I was just making it worse, so right now I've told her, it leave her alone, but won't stop loving her. I've told her il be there for her whenever, and the only girl I want is her. Which is true, sounds cheesy, but the only girl I want to live my life with, is her. She's naturally beautiful, attractive, funny, the nicest girl I will ever meet or have the chance to be with and I ruined it by my stupidity. I really regret, hate myself and I'm ashamed for what I've done. I know she still loves me, and has feelings for me. But I don't want to be with anyone but her, and deep down I know she only wants to be with me. As I say at the moment, we're not talking. I've seen a latest picture of her and she's still wearing my chain I gave her (Maybe I'm over thinking that and she just doesn't realize she's still wearing it) My stuff is still at hers, and hers is still at mine and we Haven't even spoke about giving it back. Please note we still live with our familys, not together. I love her so much, what do I do? :'(
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