I'll make this as short as possible, but I need some real insight.
I got in an argument with a couple coworkers while at work the day after Christmas, and I lost my temper. I just up and walked out on the job, It was a supervisory position and paid $10 an hour.
That was possibly the most IDIOTIC thing I have ever done and I regret it terribly, I tried getting my job back but my boss gave me the cold shoulder and said there's no coming back.
I've struggled trying to find another job since I quit. My fiancée is now left with this extra $$ burden. She has been working 70hrs a week, but still, something seems different about her. She has been snappy and I react and snap back. I'm starting to not see the joy in her eyes anymore, our intimacy is slackin, and we have had sex twice in the past 3 weeks.
I try to get her to open up and talk, all she says is she's tired, which I can certainly understand. At times I feel like she is falling out of love with me, but I think a lot of that could be in my head too, I don't know. I haven't been myself either. This has been a major ego crusher on me and it's my fault I admit.
I'm sleeping like 3 hours a night, I can't sleep because my mind is racing 24/7 due to stress. I went to see my doctor because of the horrible insomnia, and he thinks I am just really distressed and possibly depressed
. He has me taking valium to help me fall asleep and a low dose of Xanax to help with my anxiety. Are all of these perceptions of mine just "anxiety" or is my relationship going to sh**?
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It's definitely not all in your head.
You caused her to have to pick up the slack.
Now she is carrying a burden that she didn't bargain for.
The only way to fix this is to show you appreciate everything she is doing.
When she is rude or nagging, it doesn't excuse her behavior.
But understand she is under a lot of stress and has reason to be.
Also, keep on the hunt of finding a job, daily !
Relieve her from this.
If she sees you aren't just staying home and you are actively looking, she might start to feel differently about you.
As soon as you get a job,
Take her out to her favorite restaurant.
Buy her flowers !
Do the things that make her feel wonderful.0