I'm not showing an image myself because I'm not looking for compliments to "boost my self esteem", and quite frankly, I am petrified that I'd just recieve a whole lot of comments stating just how ugly I am.
I go about each and every day, morning to night.. obsessing and worrying about ugly I must look.. I compulsively check my looks in mirrors and reflections.. mostly to see if maybe I suddenly look okay.. but no, same ugly face to me. I have a boyfriend, he always I'm beautiful.. same with my family.. but I just do not believe them.. I mean, they all love me for me, so of course they don't see me as ugly. I don't see people I love as ugly.
I feel super sad over this.. I tell no one because it sounds so vain and selfish, but this truly is what runs though my mind and it makes me feel like a load of shit each day.. I don't even let people take my picture.
I don't know how to get over this. :( It just makes life seem unappealing when it feels like I'll feel like this forever. I don't want the world to think I'm pretty.. I want to think that I'm pretty, so I feel good about myself. So.. any advice? Thank you.
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Think back to a time when you felt good about yourself. Or when it didn't matter. Then try to think of what made that change? Why or who made you feel like you weren't worth looking good? Then ask yourself if that persons opinion matters?
I recommend looking in the mirror everyday after you are done getting ready and not finding things that are wrong, but finding at least three things you like about how you look that day. And if you do look in a window or a mirror in passing and put yourself down, you have to say three nice things about yourself. The hard part will be training your brain to see what everyone else sees and what you have a hard time believing. Good luck :-)0