My grand father is sick, I love him because he have always treated me nice, but sometimes I remember what my family says about him, (my family doesn't hate him, though) he tries to kill my grand mother and he cheated on her multiple times, she went through this and forgave him and I just can't undertand how she did it.
All my life, I've been trying to be strong, when it comes to movies and shit I don't have any problems with crying, but in real life, when something bad happens, I always try to hold it and be strong, so no one knows I'm dying on the inside.
So... my grand father is sick, (most of my grand parents are sick lol) he's old and I know he is not going to live many more years, I talked about this with my mom and she said he was paying... and I agree.
I don't wanna cry when he dies, I just want to be able to forget everything and move on, I've never been through a lost, all my family luckily has been with me since I was born, but now.. it's time to say goodbye and I don't wanna break when the time comes. Am I a bad person for this? because I think he deserves this? because I don't wanna cry when my family dies? should I cry? should I stop believing that I'm stronger than I actually am?
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When he dies, you should have a clear conscience knowing that you let him know you loved him. And even though he apparently has caused other problems, he has treated you nice and you love him. Don't pull away from him now because of the problems he has with others. There may be other things that you or the rest of your family may not be aware of that are reasons for the problems he had with some people.
Let his life end with you on good terms with him, because it will bother you otherwise and you can never go back and change it later.3
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