So I'm basically a "glass half empty" sort of person. I enjoy sarcasm, dry and crude humor, and satire. And apparently I hate everything (according to my family). I look at life, and I know something bad is bound to happen to me. I get really anxious, which leads to very negative thoughts about the situation, any person involved, and me. I become hysterical and then i just shut down. I'm not sure how to change it even though i really want to. I know how to act as if I'm very happy, but when it's just me in my room at night, I remember its all a front. And even when i try not to fake a smile, I can't because I hate it when people see me sad or upset, i feel vulnerable and weak.
How do you enjoy life?
I'm not sure what to do. This is just who I am, but I know the anxiety is bad for me and so is the negativity. I've never really shared this with anyone, so I'm a little lost.
and please dont say something sappy like, "Think back to a time where it was ok" "eat tubs of ice cream" "laugh a lot!" Because to someone like me, that means nothing. I mean, I could do it. It just won't help me at all.
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I don't know how one gets to enjoy life, I don't always. But I've dealt with some anxiety before and, strange as it may seem, what really helps me is reminding myself why anxiety is "bad for me" in a practical (rather than psychological) sense. Life is easier when I'm not a nervous wreck. It's literally easier to get things done - my hands don't shake when I'm writing an exam, for example.0