We're you seeking attention or did you really want to die? What method did you use? And why. What was your thought when you thought you really were about to die? Did you feel regret at the last minute? And, how did you feel when you realized it didn't work, are you great full to be alive?
Most Helpful Guy
No, but I've thought about it before. And I am so glad that I never decided to go through with any of those thoughts.0
Most Helpful Girl
Yes I have a few times, and I did not do it for attention. I suffer from bipolar disorder which consists of episodes of mania (just imagine being high on coke constantly. you don't sleep, you don't eat, you're full of ideas, can't stop talking, insane sex drive, prone to bursts of anger, every sense is insanely heightened, you feel like you can literally conquer the world. The length of the episodes vary from person to person and full blown mania only happens to some sufferers.. others go through what is known as hypomania which is similar just not as intense.) and episodes of severe depression. If I'm unmedicated I can have these spells and they last for months, with stable periods inbetween. During the depression periods I will sleep nearly sixteen hours a day, cut contact with nearly all of my loved ones, and eventually get suicidal. If a person is actually contemplating suicide they aren't likely to tell anyone, because they don't want to be stopped. Those who do tell aren't exactly attention seekers, it could just be a cry for help, but there are exceptions to every rule. Everytime I attempted suicide I told no one, and would try to make it look like an accident so none of my loved ones would blame themselves. I would try to OD on purpose, or drink myself to death over a few month long spree (which is called aggravated suicide). There were many occasions during these times where I would pray I wouldn't wake up and I would get very angry when I did, or worse, if somebody found me and got me to a hospital. Because they were such stoopers I dont remember much before falling asleep.
I finally had enough and sought treatment and I am very thankful for it. My life has completely turned around. I found a medication "cocktail" that worked for me, moved, and am in love with a guy who loves me for me, and understands me inside and out. Things are far from perfect, but I'm alive and getting better and better everyday. Those who say suicide is for the weak don't know the half of it.3