When i analyse my friends and friendships over the years i have noticed that i haven't really had close friends for more than 7 years (combined) and im sitting here soon 21 and dont have a best friend, and its difficult to not ask the question "what is wrong with me, why dont i have a best friend?".
I will care a lot to being with, but it will slowly stop. One example is my latest best friend. We had know eacother since kindergarden , but w didn't really become best friends before 7th grade.
M latest best friend was my world basically for 5-6 of the years we were best friends. I was really insecure and shy (and dependent basically), she was the oposit and she was the one that "intrudced me to the world" you could say. But afte those years i just slowsly started to get indifferent about our relationship, i also realised how emtionally ustable she was and how she always made me look like the bad guy, if she did something it was ok, but when i did it wad becaue i was a slefish person.
It came to a point where i didn't miss her, i didn't really care if we hung out or not.. i wasn't glad to see her or anyhting. Long story short after our last fight, and not talking for months, she messaged me, and i didn't want to tell teh truth (that i didn't care) and preteding to be her friend would only be fake so i broke it off.
While i was friends with her, i made another really close friends.. but i was very insecure and, i dont blame her for cutting it off to say it like that. I have manged to make new friends, but i still haven't met someone im comfortable telling my true feelings, so it happens that thing bottle opp.. i do have my sisters, but it would be nice with a new best friend.
And that caring a lot and then just slowly not caring kinda bothers me.. i feel like a crappy person for no caring.. but if the feeling isn't there im not goin to pretend, right? Any advice? i dont know what to do
Most Helpful Guy
I don't have a best friend either. I used to. But he fucked me over pretty good by not keeping his end of a deal we had made so I did what I had to do. Plus after he married he just wasn't the same person anymore. I do miss hanging out with him but I wouldn't want to be like we were because I just wouldn't trust him that much, ya know?
Anyways, I get how you feel. I don't trust easily but it would be nice to have a guy friend I could trust like that again0
Most Helpful Girl
I don't have a best friend either. It is sometimes lonely but as long as you have a few people to support you you will be fine. I hope u get a best friend though.0