My mother passed away last Friday and I was very close to her. I took care of her for years and my biggest fear was losing her. She knew I was terrified of ever thinking of her passing. I have a hard time with death. I didn't know my grandfather well at all but I could barely make it through his funeral and the view of him in his casket Is stuck in my head. I wasn't able to sleep for a week or two after that. I can't even imagine how bad it would be going to my mother's funeral. I want to stay home for my own mental health but my grandmother says that I need to go. I know my mother would understand. What do I do? I want to remember her alive. I loved her more than anything but I can't go to her funeral. What do I do?
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You don't need to go. Funerals are not for the dead, they are for the living. As a member of the living if you don't want or need to go then don't. The last thing your mother would want is to cause you unnecessary emotional harm with her funeral. You'll come to terms with her death in your own time.3