i was once addicted to oxycontin for a year. i stopped for a whole year, then started doing heroin a year later. that lasted a few months. then i stopped. that was over 2 years ago and since then every 4-5 months or so i relapse and start doing heroin for a week or two or three then i stop.
in my past i've experienced a lot of pain. i won't get into it but life has not been easy for me.
i wasn't raised to do drugs. i grew up in a good home which only ever put me on track to succeed. my mother and father are both relatively successful financially.
even the junkie girls around the place i buy from ask my why the fuck i'm doing this and start lecturing me and its because its clear to see that this isn't truly me. every time i go there the same olderish woman who's about in her mid 30s says, you fucking idiot go be a model or something you're so handsome you're wasting your time and your life here.
right now i just dont know what to do. i want to stop but i am not ready to face reality because the truth is i am in pain. and everyone has their own way of coping with pain, and this is my way.
Most Helpful Girl
Not sure what yoir beliefs are but I have had two very close friends to me pull through a heroin addiction and a meth/cocaine addiction. After many failed rehab attempts they went through a church addictions program and found exactly what they needed. One of them is years sober, and one of them is about 6 months sober. I've attended those meetings with them and the ones we have been to were phenomenal. No one is pushing anything down your throat, everyone is welcoming and supportive and many have been in your shoes. And like I said, not sure your beliefs but whatever pain your feeling can be healed. Good luck with whatever path you take and you can do this. One day at a time.0
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Most Helpful Guy
I've never been addicted.. But I've seen every member of my family go through this.. U have to get a strong desire to quit.. But thats not even enough... U should go somewhere you won't even be able find it.. And it would take all day to get where you know u can get it... please quit it.. I have cut all ties with my family because of these drugs and others, and i hate for you or someone you care about to suffer because of a high0