I've always been uncomfortable with my looks. When I was a toddler, I would scratch my face until it bled (only when I looked in mirrors) and my mom had to put gloves on me.
In middle school, I started pulling my hair out, and picking my gums until they bled. It gave me a sense of relief.
Now, I'm 18 and a senior in HS, and I've been cutting since 10th grade. I just hate myslef. I'm too skinny, and everyone is always telling me how unattractive that is.
I have an ugly face, no boobs, and i just hate every single thing about myself.
I have BDD (body dismorphic disorder) and I was wondering if someone could help give me advice. Will I be alone forever? I doubt anyone could ever love someone so disgusting with ugly scars..
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I used to be a cutter, I struggled with it from the age of 12-19, I have scars all over my body, I have found a few rare gems who love me anyway. I've also ran into people who judge me for them and I always just tell them that I had issues in the past. My troubles were not quite like yours, I had a horrible childhood and took it out on myself and became addicted to the feeling of being in control of the harm I caused myself. You will find people who will not judge you, they are out there, but you're going to have to learn how to be comfortable with you and show them who you are on the inside and not just what you have on the outside.
Good luck girl, I know this isn't an easy feat.2