Most Helpful Guy
I've known a pedophile who has never hurt anyone, and would never hurt anyone. He does not wish to desire children, but they are simply what he is attracted to. He hates it. He hates himself. The only reason he hasn't committed suicide is because he believes he is strong enough to never do something that would victimize someone else.
He can't even get mental health consoling about this. If you talk to a shrink about this, you will be reported (to hell with doctor/patient privacy), you will be arrested, and your home will be ransacked looking for evidence of a crime.
Once it becomes clear you have not committed one, and that you are not in possession of illegal things like child porn, cops will watch your every move anyways, and your community, your family, your job, your friends, will all see you as a monster, and turn you out, despite you never hurting anyone.
Except his chances of getting off are amazingly low. In US law, a Sears or K-Mart catalog are ruled as "child pornography," if, and only if, they are in the possession of a pedophile. He will be convicted on child porn charges, for the same sears catalog every house on his street gets.
Learning about him, about people like him who do not touch children, who would never hurt a child, who see their desire as something they did not choose (like heterosexuality of being gay), but who do not act on it because they know touching a kid is wrong, who feel cursed with these desires? Makes me feel sorry for them, and realize that for every monster you hear about on the news, there are likely 100 others who would never hurt a child, never touch a child, but would be treated equally as monsters.
My secret is that I have a strong sympathy for such pedophiles, and I think they are treated unfairly and denied help. And if you DARE even suggest such a thing, you are accused of defending child rapists, or of being a pedophile yourself. And so I am silent.0
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Most Helpful Girl
I know a boy since I was 14 online and he is handsome at first glance. So I want to know him because of his appearence. He is really handsome: his eyes are blue and has gourges features.
After I contacted him by fb. I found out he is intelligent too. But we live far.
We chatted everyday: my and his life are similar, so we called 'alter ego ' each other.
We were really close. But we live too far.
Now, I am 17 and still in love with him... I have met a lot of attractive guys, but no one is speciale for me. Yeah. Sometimes we chat, but not that often cause he is busy and me too.
And I know we will never met because he wants to study in Uk and I want to stay in Italy... But still I love him so much.
I can't forget about him, I don't know why I love him so much. It hurts sometimes. I know we will never meet, but I hope.
I never say my feelings, I am always afraid of.
Other guys are always second best to me. I know it's wrong thinking like this, but I can't thinking in other way...