I remember when I was small, in all my baby videos my mother isn't even really paying attention to me, although she's playing and stuff not really.
At one point she kissed my sister and it was so apparent of the hurt on my face that she smiled and kissed me too.
I remember always feeling as though she loved and favoured my sister, not me. Even as an adult, it was clear that if something ever happened, it was her side she was on.
I remember when I was small too my mother would make me pray to have a brother so they could have a son.
It makes me wonder... did they even want a second daughter? Is that why they treat me so badly?
Most Helpful Guy
are you the younger? It is hard for parents to love on all kids equally, but I noticed they do favor... my dad favored my brother. Mom was equal I think.
Wow, I'm thinking it is possible though given what you stated... how hurtful.
How to put this in perspective... maybe... recognize your parents are human beings with their own assumptions and failings and needs. But you are Gods child, they are just the caretakers here. Getting that perspective, which is true if you believe in God/love/Jesus something above your flawed parents, you realize you are right the way you are and their human control issues projected onto you are a lie. The only solution is loving them back honestly as hard as that may seem.
Most Helpful Girl
My mom is the oldest child and her parents got pregnant out of wedlock and in the 50s at that so my mom was born and her little brother is 10 months younger yes 10 months. They've always made it clear that she didn't matter her grandparents raised her so it's not uncommon but it's a shame and I'm really sorry you feel that way. But when you have children of your own if you choose you'll be a wonderful mother! Just remember that you do matter.0