No, I'm not. Although I try to be a good role model. I have made so many mistakes, I feel like I can no longer gain the status of being a good role model. No matter what good I do, the past mistakes I have made, knowing full well that it was not right, I will never be a good person that I want others to be like.
Most Helpful Guy
You know what? I hold grudges against myself for things I did all the way back from when I was a kid. I always forgive people and give them chances, normally at my own expense, I try really hard to be honest an up-front with people even when it's hard, I work so hard on relationships and almost always stick around till the bitter end, I love my mother who screws me over every fucking chance she gets, I help my father who nothing is ever enough for, I visit my dying grandfather who no one seems to understand but me, I love my grandmother even more than my best friend, who was my girlfriend who I was so attached to that I ended the relationship simply to save our friendship, which I don't even know what the fuck is going on with it. I just know that I'm losing sleep over it and For the first time in my life I'm getting nightmares as I beat myself up for every wrong thing I can remember ever doing and constantly telling myself that I'm an asshole or a piece of shit or that I'm not caring enough about other people or putting myself in their shoes enough!
Fuck it! I'm a good guy. I'm a great guy. In fact, I'm fucking outstanding as a person. I just try all the time to do what's right and come up with some creed to follow.1
Most Helpful Girl
Life is not like a movie where there are kind and evil people, heroes and villains.
In each of us there are little heroes and little villains.
When someone does something bad I don't love to judge them cause I am sure they have done and will do good things.
No one is totally bad and no one is totally good and I am not an exception in this case.
I am good and I am bad, I've done good things and I've done bad things. That's why I try to never judge people, I am sure that If I were them, in their shoes, I may have done a same or even worse mistake.
Some people may express themselves as bad and others may have a mask of a good person but that's not true. If we are with someone we should take their bad and good sides at the same time cause that's what makes them unique.
I am bad and I am good. Depends from which point you are looking at me. That's part of being a human.2