Most of time i feel so ugly and unwanted , like really ugly , i keep looking at myself in the mirror and i lose it and start crying.
All i see is beautiful girl with nice bodies , and i look like a freak , i feel like i'm not good enough for anyone.
What should i do? this makes me feel depressed all the time and sometimes i give up on eating and going out and i just lock myself inside my room so no one sees the monster i am.
Plus i'm not assertive and i lose it in social events.
Most Helpful Guy
Your picture looks pretty enough from what I can tell.
Both insecurity and confidence are cascading forces, you know?
If you have insecurities, you tend to behave in a way that makes people less welcoming of you. Then you tend to fuel the insecurities, and start looking for things to blame about yourself.
If you have confidence, you tend to behave in a way that makes people more welcoming of you. That tends to boost the confidence, and then you start to feel more and more attractive.
It's hard to break a vicious insecurity cycle which tends to operate like a downward spiral, but I'm thinking that's all you have. When you are reaching rock bottom when it comes to insecurity, you'll tend to think you're the ugly duckling even if you're a swan.0
Most Helpful Girl
If you have time to be insecure then you need to be busier. Start working on things and get out of your head. One of my good friends always told me that when I was having a hard time in lacrosse, she'd tell me to look around and get out of my head. It helped me a lot.1