This completely came out of the blue. One day last winter my parents went out together, and that night I stayed at home alone. I should've gone out with my friends but it started raining heavily, so I thought that a relaxing Saturday night would be fun. I'd just watched one of my favourite movies, I turned the TV off and started staring into space, and daydreaming. I started thinking about what my life would be like if I was a guy. This always happened to me... even when I was a child, I randomly told my mum I wanted to be a guy. When my dad found out about this he beat me up, and this is probably the reason why I started ignoring those thoughts and hiding them from myself. That night I started watching videos online about transgenders, and I realised that I wanted to be one of those guys, I accepted it: I'm a transgender. No shame in that.
I've been in therapy for years because of my depression, I always talk to my psychologist about how I don't feel good about myself and who I am and how much I wish I was someone else, but I just didn't think it had anything to do with that. But now everything is starting to make sense, I just don't feel good about my body and I want to become a man, and this also explains why I'm attracted to both genders. I want to find a job and save up for surgery, but I need my family's support, and I need to tell them about this. I can't keep on hiding this...
I just needed to vent to someone, this story is driving me crazy.
Most Helpful Guy
Here we have another example of a person jumping on the Transsexual bandwagon8
Most Helpful Girl
Just cuz you thought about being a guy you aren't trans. And FYI the surgery is gonna charge you 80k so you better be sure of it. I would talk to a shrink just to make sure that that's who you really are because you may be wrong.
Also being attracted to women says nothing im attracted to women and I'm def not trans.8
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