Maybe you have doubts in your life? Maybe you don't know for sure what's going to be happening in the future? And it scares you? Do you think you have hope? You think you don't have enough strength to get back up?
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Most Helpful Girl
Yes but only around my parents. As soon as I express some kind of problem my parents become so extremely worried that they don't want to let go of me, which suffocates me. When I told them I was suicidal they stuck me to my home, majority of my freedom (that I needed the most) was taken away from me, purely because they were so worried about me.
I could definitely never say I was raped my dad would go bat shit crazy as fuck and probably try to find a gun and kill that guy... and then lock me in my room forever and never meet guys ever again. lol... Let alone people...
But other than that, I don't really pretend everything is fine, when I have something on my mind thats bothering me I'll go straight to my best friend and tell her whats on my mind and we'll talk about it. That way it don't bottle things up and I get over things and we sort our problems out together.0
Most Helpful Guy
Sure. No one gives a fuck, so it'd just end up embarrassing myself and exposing weakness which could be exploited.
That's a lot of questions.
Yes. Many doubts. I have so many doubts that I doubt my own doubts.
No one knows for sure what's going to happen in the future. I could wake up tomorrow and get kidnapped by a Mexican drug cartel, or wake up to a bullet in the eye from a drive by, or I could somehow win millions of dollars. Or, as time has shown, it could be the same kind of bullshit as usual.
No. There is no hope. Hope is just another way to suffer. Severing oneself from all expectations is a much more efficient way to live. Less pain. The Buddhists call it nirvana. The absence of desire = the absence of pain. Likewise, the minimization of desire = the minimization of pain.
Strength. I don't know. It's not so much strength that gets me back up. More or less just pride and... what's the word..., hatred, since I can't think of the correct word, for the idea that my enemies would love nothing more than for me to give up. The best way to harm your enemies is by living a good life.0