I say the least mean things from people I know. But there was one incident. Makes me a little disgusted at myself to even recall but I will let it out nonetheless.
My mom was being scolding me and I got into an argument with her, after which I asked her to remove that 'ugly face' away from my sight and die. Her angered expression immediately changed and she seemed shocked and genuinely hurt, because I have never said something as horrible to anyone before let alone her.
I stood there frozen, and I couldn't believe I said that to her. I couldn't have ever imagined saying something like that to anyone.
I was too angry to apologize, but she was sitting on her bed knitting later at night, I went into her room, told her I didn't mean it and I was extremely sorry. She held me in her arms and I suddenly found myself burst into tears. I was a little surprised at myself, but I guess since I did, I was really reallly ashamed of myself. And it's true. No one deserves to be called ugly and made feel unwanted -ESPECIALLY not your mother.
I once put a noose round a guys neck with him not knowing it wasn't tied to anything, put him outside of a LOW window and pushed him out, before he hit the floor and had realized the noose was not tied to anything, the poor guy had soiled himself and pissed him self, which after I had realized a prank had gone to far, but these were my younger schooling days and a lot has been learnt since then lol,x
I have called a cancer patient a bald headed bitch and I have always felt like sh*t for saying that to her. I never got the chance to apologize because I never saw her again. But you should never say something that hurts people because you always regret it later on.
My mate and I were making racial stereotype jokes (he started it lol), anyway he said something about Asians and I bought up the "black fathers running out on their families" stereotype, forgetting the fact that his dad actually ran out on him. He looked sad and threw popcorn at me. I felt pretty bad lol
I told my own mother that if she died today, I'm not sure I would be at her funeral. My relationship with her is extremely strained and has been for a long time. We rarely talk anymore and every time we're together, the risk for confrontation is extremely high. I wish our relationship was different, but it takes two people to solve such a problem. If it's one-sided, the same issues will recur again and again.
"You're so stupid, you can't do anything right why can't you be like everybody else and stop being such a f*cking weirdo all the time, I hate you, you make everybody go away because you're so f***ed up you're a freak" That's probably one of the meanest things I've ever said, and I was saying it to myself.
A few times I've told my older brother that I wished he was dead and wanted a "better" brother. That's really the lowest a person can ever go and I feel terrible about it. Even though me and my brother argue and fight a lot, at the end of the day, I love him so much, that if I ever lost him I really don't know what I'd do. It was kind of a spur of the moment kind of thing and it just came out. I was pissed off. But really that's not an excuse to say something like that. I regret it a lot. If I ever lost him, I sure as hell wouldn't want that to be the last thing I said to him