I've found myself in the weirdest situation.
The short version is...
About 1,5 year ago, me and a very good friend of mine since around 10 years back and who's 14 years older than me (I'm 31 and she's 45, well, read milf) ended up in bed together. We've always enjoyed each others company immensely so none of us was really surprised that this eventually happened. The sex was the best either of us has ever had and we started to see each other more and more frequently. She started to develop very intense feelings for me and even though I have strong feelings for her, I never really got to that point where I could picture myself being with her in a firm relationship and see us have a future together with a family etc...
All the same, we have continued this exclusive relationship for 1,5 years now with a lot of ups and downs since, well... she's very very in love with me and I just have very strong feelings for her. I've tried to break the whole thing off about three times when she's had her worst down periods due to me not wanting to commit to a relationship and of course I don't want to hurt her in any way like that, but every time when she's got herself out of it she's still wanted to continue the relationship as is and I've just been too weak to say no and call the thing off. It's like, when it's great it's really great and when it's bad it's bad.
She has described it as the best relationship she's ever had, but where it's still not a relationship, which makes it so weird.. for both of us.
I'm just so damn confused about my heart and my head telling me very different things I can't seem to come to any good conclusions.
Please chime in with your thoughts on the situation. :)
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My question to you is, if you can't see having a relationship with her beyond the status you have now and there has been countless tears over your willingness to commit, why haven't you let her go? It's like getting shot and being left there to bleed to death. It's painful and you just want to know when will it be over because it hurts so much.
I personally think you have stronger feelings for her than you even know or will allow yourself to and there's a slight chance you may even love her.i think it would have been nice to give the relationship a real go at something real, even if it wre for just a short period...like a trial run. This would have given the one thing she's wanted and needed and if it didn't work out, you'dat least KNOW for sure.
This sounds like the saddest love story and I think you owe it yourself to give it a real chance. Love isn't something you catch like a cold...it's more like a flower that grows and if you water it and care for it with genuine attention, it usually blossoms into something worth investing in.
Hope this helped. I wish you luck in love.0