Most Helpful Girl
Breaking up doesn't Always mean 'So long, it's over forever,' there may still be a Slight chance, after not being with you for awhile, thinking things over, and probably missing you Terribly at One point she Could be in touch with you. Everyone is different, every situation is not the same.
After all, you both have had nearly 5 years together, and the stabbing knife wounds are still fresh. And with not being with you every day, she probably will start to miss you. However, I can promise you she Is thinking about the memories, the 'messy break up,' so she is definitely doing some soul searching. And you should as well.
In the mean time, after you have had plenty of time to see where your own mistakes have been, I am quite sure that No matter Who you might end up with one day, you will have learned from the past, and will do better in the future. And in good time, you could always check to see how she is doing. Perhaps one day you both may end up as best friends. Time will tell.
Move on for now, get on with your life, and lick your wounds. Don't wait around for What Could be, you will drive yourself crazy. Don't suddenly find yourself 'Stopping taking care of myself.' Don't go backwards, step forwards.
If it's meant for old Mother Nature to sow the seeds you wish to reap, she will make it happen.