It has been a month since I broke up and the truth is things are getting worse. Yesterday was my birthday and a part of me was wishing that my ex would say happy birthday (just something simple and sweet). I went out and got wasted and slept with two random girls. Woke up feeling even more depressed today. I got a hunch she's dating a guy she met at her new job. Considering how things ended up in my relationship I shouldn't let this bother me... but it is.
I'm a full grown man, and I've been through break ups before. I'm familiar with this depression... I know it will eventually subside. However I wonder if I should go see a counselor. I have been engaging in some very risky behavior. I'm trying to put on my tough guy face... but my insides are falling apart.